I was feeling very down, wondering whether it was worth writing anymore. Then a review like this comes along and I end up in tears...
Being an author is a struggle, and even more so being an indie author. We write not only with “ink”, but very often with the blood drawn from the bottom of our hearts. And we suffer from continuous doubt: “Are my books good?” “Is my message understood?” “Do they make a difference?” “Is it worth the effort?”
Last week, one more story came from another OpenBooks.com indie author, Julie Roberts Towe:
Then this buzzing insect of doubt multiplied. I thought maybe it was pointless to keep writing, even if only for a handful of people. Were readers really understanding what I was trying to say or did my words fall short? I felt completely disconnected, like my books were calling out into the crowd and no one was answering.
Last Thursday, I contemplated quitting. I thought, “I’ll quit writing.” I had let myself settle into this idea of changing my daily writing routine, giving up, letting it all go.
Friday (...) An email from Openbooks.com saying my book, Silencer, had been reviewed. I knew in my heart the review, good or bad, would either solidify my choice to quit writing or complicate the matter.
It was our beloved Stanley Laine who wrote, "I made the mistake of reading the first couple of chapters and could not put it down, so I ended up finishing it in a day. In other words, it’s a page-turner. I had to know how things would end up for Rhoda, Ben, and Nanshe because I started caring about the characters …."
I stopped reading and covered my mouth to hold back the sob I was about to make while I hurried into my bedroom and shut the door so my kids wouldn’t see me cry. I crawled into bed and cried harder than I’ve cried in months if not years. It was the kind of tears a person sheds when they see their spouse return from war. My message was received and valued. It was *everything*, EVERYTHING, ever.y.thing!
And thank you, Stanley Laine, wherever (whoever) you are for not keeping your thoughts to yourself. <3
Psychological research says people are thirty times more likely to express dissatisfaction than contentment. About movies, dinners or car shops which have given us joy we speak rarely or never, but if we’re upset we inform the whole world. It makes spreading good news all the more important. Dear reader, if you’re not a writer, you may not understand the emotions described by Julie. But even if you don't, just remember: if you liked a book, please reward the author with a few minutes of your time to write a review. You never know if you’re changing somebody's life.
OpenBooks.com was meant to revolutionize the eBook market. But altering the lives of specific people is something of incredible value not comparable to any countable factors... And all these people are precious, talented writers; their books, even those about the dark sides of the human mind, make world a better place. I'm so glad we all met here at OpenBooks.com.